Having left the British Army 22 years ago I was diagnosed with PTSD and was using drink and drugs to the point that I was becoming more and more and chaotic. My transition into civilian life was hard, I felt isolated and had very few positive social experiences once out of service.
Doctors dosed me up on all kinds of medication and I was using and drinking on top of these to such a level that I ended up being sectioned under the Mental Health Act on 2 occasions. I tried tp get help for my PTSD but nowhere would see me or take me in because I was using and drinking, but when I went to get help with the addiction/alcoholism no-one would help me with that either because my mental health was so poor. They thought I couldn’t withstand the rigours of rehab.
Then I find THH through Liverpool Vets HQ. I finally came home. Welcomed like I had never been welcomed since the days in my old regiment. I went in there believing I was worthless and left knowing in my heart that I am loved and that I am of value. I know now that being part of a community was better than all the neds, the drugs and the drink. I found trust in the staff and the clients. I would never have found this in a civvy rehab. I had to find myself with other men and women of the armed forces to begin with.
Now I am active within the wider recovery community as THH encouraged us all to become part of a bigger more purposeful movement.
My awareness of my emotional health has grown tremendously and the family work I did was of huge benefit too.
THH really helped me reach a place where my insight grew and where I felt so many feelings that I had previously bottled up. The things I had been oblivious too became clear too and so those ‘blindspots’ couldn’t hold me back anymore either.
I wish THH had been around much earlier. It’s crazy to think it has only been in existence for just over 2 years and that it has saved so many lives already.
We have a great community here and I encourage any armed forces personnel to visit us if they need help. It is on offer here like it has never ever been before.